Milligan College - Golf

Kacie Mullins

Growing up, my Christian faith was a part of my every day life.  My family has a strong background in the church and so it was only natural for me to be a part of that heritage.  My dad has been a minister and worked in the church since before I was born; so being at church was like being home.  My grandpa is also a preacher, which my mother grew up saying she would never marry a preacher, but clearly that didn’t work out too well for her.  And as if two preachers in the family aren’t enough, my uncle was a Christian singer.  My faith and belief in Christ has always been a huge part of my life, but when I was younger I didn’t cherish it as much as I have come to in the last year.

At the age of nine I decided to be baptized because I felt “called” to become a Christian.  I thought I knew what I was getting myself into then, but as time has passed I have realized that I still don’t understand what I committed my life to.  Being young, I thought my life was going to become easier after I was baptized. Clearly I was shocked when that was not the case.  My faith had been tested growing up through problems at school and problems in sports, but it was never anything major.

Like a lot of girls, I did gymnastics when I was younger.  I never realized it then, but I came to realize I had never learned to trust myself, which in turn meant that I was never able to fully trust God.  I always had major mental blocks when I was attempting new tricks, and I would always repeat the Psalms 56:3 “When I am afraid I will put my trust in you,” which always helped calm me down.  That was the first time that I felt like I was able to make my faith and my relationship with Christ my own in a very small way.

For the longest time that was the most I had been tested.  I didn’t have any idea what was in store for me through my senior year of high school though.  Two years ago I had, what some people might say, a crisis of faith.  I was playing golf for our women’s team and we had one of the best teams in the state.  I had never been good enough to play top five before my senior year, but finally I was good enough to play in our tournaments.  Although I had the same scores as most of the girls on my team, my coach decided not to play me.  This was devastating to me, because I had always reached all of my goals up to that point in my life, and now my dreams came crashing down. 

During that time, I had been speaking to my current golf coach at Milligan College, and he decided to give me a golf scholarship.  I was so excited to play for Milligan College and I kept thinking to myself how wonderful things were going for me.  I was only leaning on my own needs at that time though because I believed that I was the one fulfilling my dreams, when in all reality it was all due to God’s goodness.  After I signed to play for Milligan, my life came to a devastating halt.  Within the next six months I was tested more than ever before.  My dad was fired from our home church of eight years, I had to have shoulder surgery, and I lost my grandma and my aunt within eleven weeks of each other.  I figured life couldn’t get any worse.  Everything I had once believed in was gone.  I thought God had abandoned my family and I in our time of need.  I had watched my family suffer through this time with unwavering trust in God, but I felt as though I had been betrayed. 

After several months of feeling sorry for myself, I finally stood up and wiped the tears from my eyes.  I was finally able to understand that God had not abandoned me, and that he still truly loved my family and I.  It was one of the most difficult times in my life, but I was able to come out stronger on the other side knowing that God is always here for me.  Before all of this happened, I got a tattoo that said “God is Love.” That statement has never meant more to me than it does now.  I know with all of my heart that God does love each and every one of us and He will be there with us through everything. 

My dad has continued to quote Philippians 1:6, “And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.”  I believe that God will carry my story on to completion.  Before all of those things happened my senior year, I had never really made my faith my own.  Now that I have made it my own, I have been able to carry it onto the golf course with me.   Being at Milligan College has also helped me tremendously because I have learned to dive deeper into my walk with Christ.  My family has also helped me in my walk because I have seen people come to Christ through their lives, and it isn’t because they are perfect, it is because they are broken.  I have seen that it is okay to be broken and hurting, but what matters is that you give everything up to God and let him take control of your life. This has been a huge change and constant struggle for me, but I know that God will always be there to help me up when I fall.

                                                                                                                                                                             Kacie Mullins